Burning Karma

My sankalpa was simple: make a living doing what I love. And a good living at that.

I made that many times, but the time that stands out is during the late Psalm Isadora's tantric manifestation course. We used our yoni’s as the portal of creation that they are, and we started with our sankalpa, our intention.

Since then, I've expanded the practice, and you can find the full mini course book in my links soon. (This is a classic esoteric practice found in mystery traditions. I blend elements of Tantra and the White Tigress / Taoist schools that I went on to study.)

Except that, after the Psalm course in 2014-15, I “had” to continue to study, practice, and burn a fuck ton of karma before and during the first stages of making a living.

My sensual massage and Tantra hands-on, one to one based business DID support my tiny family. However, it was like riding a bike with low air in the front tire and the handlebars crooked and no seat. Very uncomfortable. Slow-going, leaving me in despair quite a bit.

It was me. The problem was me - or rather a thick and heavy karmic forcefield.

This looked like:

-Vacillating around my purpose and looking for other solutions (for example, jobs, relationships, selling anything other than my purpose.

- Starting other businesses (not soul based, some do great here! I did not)

-Devoting life force into dead end relationships and not self fits.

Basically, the karmic forcefield is being out of alignment and pulled with the conditioning.

I was doing all the practices, all the shadow work, watching friends around me take off, and feeling lack all the fucking time.

Here's the thing.

I experienced so MUCH, and now it all translates into WAYS to SERVE others on the path. The real key is taking the trial and error and offering it as wisdom, strength, and hope for those who need it. And monetizing that happily and without reservation.

Maybe you are currently in the sensuality field and know it’s your time to evolve. Maybe you are in a relationship devoid of healing touch and want to harness that in your life and heal your nervous system. To both people, welcome!

Money is an infinite resource, and wanting stability with it seems to require structures and processes on this earth plane.

So, I say this to you fellow seekers: sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly.